death by experience. flashbacks with uncertainty.

i juz came back from a holiday at Desaru, Southeast Malaysia. I did MANY things. I drove the car many times lets say uhh.. parking, around desaru, and the best thing was, driving out of the resort to a village 20mins away at 80km/hr. AND YES, i drove at 80km/hr. reaching abt 100km/hr without street lights. MAN it was hell of a drive. My mum probably feels that it's okay to let me drive, as long as it's not on singapore roads where there are many cars everywhere.

so.. we did GO KART too. played pool and umm. cards and mahjong. pretty much like some other holidays besides the driving and.. jet ski.

We did JET SKI on the second day. MAN IT WAS CLIMAX-ED.
and so, it was my first as well as my bro. scissors-papper-stone decided which jet ski to take. i took the triple my bro took double. while my sis with my bro.. my mum,cous with me. 5mins after my mum wants to get off she's scared =/ yeah. IT WAS DAMN FUN!

then came something retarded. tragic perhaps. from my perspective this is what happened.. while my bro let my sis drive the twin jetski.. i let my cousin drive the triple jetski. then at this time.. my bro and sis was ahead of us but getting closer. going in the same direction as us. i told my cousin..

wy: hey slow down man we dont want to crash into them.
cous: ya ok. i wanna wipe my eyes also got sea water.

so my cous U-turned and stopped the jetski, while my sis U-turned further up in front of us.
the next thing i knew.. my sis SCREAMED. natural reflexes turned to look what happened and i saw a boat in my face. split second it took me to turn my head the other direction and bend my body at the other side, in attempt to avoid it. during that short period of about half a second, it was like a few mins to me, flashbacks came ya, pretty cool.

many flashbacks, memories.

new year's eve night cycling with a friend. cycling on a road and she was screaming while i was no-hand cycling in the middle of e road. another was when i cooked mee goreng for her at my place juz after night cycling, after she bathed. badminton with jy at jurong west.

another was at sentosa, swimming to the boundary. making a dive at beach volleyball playing with ball before self.

playing soccer at west coast court with the guys. tiffany's birthday at keng heng's house.

home econs pract during sec1 at commonwealth.

several AQ trainings.

escape theme park with my poly friends.

man.. i love my friends.

just before my sis' jetski crashed into us, my bro jumped off the jetski. as the jetski crashed into my right side, hit my leg and i'm not sure if it hit my shoulder (i felt some pain) and the jet ski sort of.. crashed upwards and slide down hit the handle and totally broke it. All 4 of us were thrown into the water.

First things first was my bro and i asking around if anyone is hurt. yup pretty much all okay except for me and my cous. our right leg injured. my cous more serious though. haha. that's pretty much it.

then the boss for the water sports came. and said that we're VERY LUCKY. the same accident happened 7years ago. in denmark april 10. except that it was 5cm higher. both the victim died.
as for ours, the jetski hit the top of the bumper first before hitting our legs. which directed the nose of the crashing jet ski to the handle bar. if it hit our legs first which is abt 5cm higher, our leg would most probably break and then hit our head, also causing our jet ski to capsize giving us a third blow. a fatal accident. man i juz escaped death by a little 5cm.

so poly life is getting much better. life is good in some aspect. but not for another. haha. pretty much made a 'clique' so to speak, as girls would say. and a few good friends too in my class! yeah. so LAST NIGHT i juz watched finish two episodes of prison break then i had a damn nice dream! maybe nonsensical to some, but it was nice to me. so my dream was briefly like that.

It was a life of weirdness. hahaha. i was old enough to have a driving license and had one. i participated and organised many community service, large scale ones. then there was this day, i got set-up by someone and was put to jail. in a high defence prison ( something like fox river ya). well before i was put into prison i had somehow familarised myself with the blueprints of the prison, (i dont know why, probably my job?)

the prison had both male and female LOL. but VERY few females. so anyway i wanted to break out of prison, not with brute force but with BRAINS. (michael scottfield like that.) i needed a crew. there was this lady, Clyne, a year younger than me also experienced the same thing, pretty good looking too. haha. she was set-up by someone, but given the death sentence, also wants to break out. however, she doesn't know how to go about breaking out of the prison.

we talked alot and discussed. and pretty much found out that the person who set us up was the SAME PERSON! we planned. and guess what. i know the blueprints of the prison, thus knowing how to break out of the prison, but i dont know how to stay out. haha. well she planned how to stay out but not know how to get out. so we worked together. i kind of liked her at this point lol.

we recruited another two guys to join us, we needed more people. the day the 'escape' came, also the day one week before her execution. security on her was more lenient and given a wish. the guards gave us CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM IN PRISON! then. it was time. we ran and BROKE OUT OF PRISON! well, this is when the two guys left us after we said goodbyes. as we followed clyne's plan, we took a car just outside the prison and drove to a closed public library. ran up to the third storey. everything went well. until the police came. surrounded the library. we hid behind a shelf and then she stopped. she said,

if we dont get out of her safely, know that, i'm quite fond of you.

oh well, being quite blur. i replied, huh?
clyne: ah err.. uhhh..
and she blushed and said quite fast.. i love you
and ran off.
i was quite stunned and followed her. we climbed to the vent to the roof of the library. then i stopped her and said.. 'well erm. you know.. i love you too'
it's abit the mushy but THIS IS MY DREAM!

we continued running. and from the roof of the library there was a 'bridge' that leads the next building. we crossed about 2 blocks and went into the third building, to the ground level. there was a man with a murcielago in the marble floored garage. she pulled me to the car and said. you know how to drive ya? get in! the man passed me the keys and we drove out. there were MANY MANY police cars patrolling around. we headed to the helipad and took the awaiting helicopter to a mansion. the people addressed me as master, clyne as mistress. A HUGE MANSION. it was peaceful there already. after i alighted from the helicopter, i helped her down. then, she held my hand and asked with a round faint red expression on her face,

hey, do you mean what u said back there?
i replied, 'yes i do.' and we hugged!
for the first time i hugged a girl. LOL.

with her leading we entered the mansion. and it seemed that she knows the place like she lived here for years. servants and maids addressed us as we enter the house. she showed me my room and soon after, i went to take a shower in my room, she took hers in her room. went downstairs for dinner and talked, ALOT. haha. we said about prison life. and stuff like that. she's as rich as me! ( in the dream. i'm not rich real-life)

then we went to sleep. it was a LOOOOONG night. we began dating, holding hands. and if you know what it feels like. to be in love and that person loves you too. it feels, like i dont know? there's someone always there for you, and i've always wanted that. to be honest, i've never really felt that feeling before. except for a few moments. we were still the most wanted people in the country. i really love the relationship. i dont know lol. i can feel the love in my DREAMS. hahaa. but it's quite cool. it's nice. there's someone there for you all the time. a girl that loves you. and you love her. we trust each other. you know? sweet talks.

a few weeks passed. and somehow, our supporters/lawyers helped and fought for us. the supreme court pronouced that me and clyne are not guilty of what we've done. it was a miracle. for the government to compensate us, they proposed to explain to the public and declare that we are not guilty and was set-up, that we are people who helps the society! and also, they will wipe off the crime of us escaping from the prison, but in turn tell them how we broke out and the weak points of the prison.

we agreed.

after a year, we got married. we drove around town and lived happily together! forgetting about those who set us up. things like.. i send her to her work place, shopping together, holding hands, when getting out of her car, help her to open door and offer my hand. small things but sweet, are big things to me. i love this dream. but i dont think i'l ever find someone whom i love and loves me too, such that we trust each other and enjoy each other's company. a love that lasts a lifetime. hmm.